When I heard your voice first time in years, my heart felt frozen for a moment. All the memories and regrets flooded in and I lost my voice for a while... I missed you so much yet I can't change our past. I am truly sorry I was so childish back then.. I wish you the best from bottom of my heart

Sigh

so i figured it out i guess.
You NEED me but what (in reality) do i need you for?
I pick u up
drive everywhere
drain my wallet
struggle to make you happy
and just feel like shit everyday cause it seems to not be enough

and without me to be honest you wouldnt be doing much with your life.

and honestly i dont ask for much. At ALL.
... you Need me, But what do i really need you for?

+1

Love is unconditional.
If you feel this way; you probably didn't really love her.
perhaps you were only attracted to her physically.

But I think there's a line between loving someone unconditionally and just being taken for granted.

If a guy puts in so much effort to make his woman happy and none of that is reciprocated, its hard to justify him putting in that much effort

we're not friggin kids anymore; stop texting me at 11:11 and 1:43
It's like youre dropping hints all over again........but don't do it like some LG :speechless:

I want to know what youre thinking when you glance at me..
Posted via RS Mobile

Don't text me if you're not going to reply

stupid girl

What if she is trapped under a bus and can't reply to you because her phone is out of her reach.

Because she replied a day later and said "Omg!! Sorry I forgot to reply!! How are you" BLA BLA BLA and then I texted back

and she didn't reply again

You know what sucks? When you miss someone like crazy but they don’t even miss you at all. When you never cross their mind while they’re running through yours. You always wonder how they’re doing, but they couldn’t seem to care less about you. When their the only person you ever think about, yet your just another face in the crowd to them.
Posted via RS Mobile

I'm happy where I am, knowing that I got her support in whatever decisions I make in my life.

You haven't been your self lately, I can tell something is on your mind....

What ever it is, I hope you feel better soon.

I miss the way we were two summers ago. That spark we had in us was something so special that I'll never forget or let go.

Me too except it was 4 years ago.

Don't really know if it's her I miss or just the relationship that I miss

I'm so thankful for you, not like anyone else who I've been with because you're so forgiving. It's never just take take take; you give so much love to me, but no matter how much I push you away and fuck up, I know you'll always be there and have my back.

should i or should i not...

I really, really like you. I have a lot of feelings for you. I don't know what's going on in your head right now but from knowing you, it's something I don't want to hear. We've been really close ever since we met and you're probably one of the few people that still remained friends with me even though you weren't really benefiting from it. We've had our highs and lows, ups and downs and we're still really close friends. You appreciated the things I did for you and did not take advantage of my kindness. Everything seemed to be going the way I wanted them to go but as of right now, I guess it's not in your interest to be more than friends. We've had our ups and downs, highs and lows and yet here we are, still have each others back. I'm not going to let myself down over this but at the moment, I feel like it's my turn to, for a lack of a better word, chill in rock bottom. I've been through a lot of shit in the last year and I honestly don't know what I would have done without your guidance. The past few days have been really awkward and weird and it feels strange not being able to talk to you normally because of all the thoughts in my mind. I feel depressed because I have no one to really tell all this to except you. I really hope this works out down the road but realistically, I don't see it ever taking place :(

Feels a bit better that I got that out even though it's RS where only one or two people know me.

I feel like I need to be "bad" to forget about you.
so I can't make connections. but then I get the feelings of guilt. and it makes me feel even worse.

I just want to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I miss you.

Maybe I'll go do this tonight.

......Why...must it be like this....
Posted via RS Mobile

dont know what to do..all i know is..everything reminds me of you @.@

Not even gonna bother with the grammar.

I'm tired of this all.... . No matter how hard I try, I'm let down again. Right when I gain enough confidence to attach myself to something in this world, I am let down. Time and time again I try, each time with failure. Each time worse than the last. Does anyone give a shit? Does anyone care? Perhaps. But in the end, i'll end up like the piece of shit i always end up as. I try to reach out to things, I try to let someone know how I feel, but no one listens.
All I could think of, is suicide.

Why do I feel this way? In honest truth, I feel like a jerk. I am so self-conscious of my own pain when others are not given the chance to live in a healthy body, given an education, great friends and family that may not seem to notice my presence, but that really do care for me.

But in the midst of all this darkness, I see light. The light that continues to shine at me no matter how dark my surroundings are.
Looking back, I remember a fellow I would see around the neighborhood that worked at safeway. Whenever I see him around, he would give me goosebumps up my spine. Not because he was a creep, but because he motivates the FUCK out of me. A kind young gentleman that carried passion and confidence in whatever he did. But he has a scarred mouth. So scarred in fact, that it couldn't be covered. So scarred, that he didn't even bother trying to cover it, that he decided to show it confidently like a true man. Each day, he would treat everyone with respect even though he knew that at times, it would not be returned. But that's what life is about right? Doing the right things without looking back, holding back our fears to reach foward to gain solid ground step by step in life. Even though he was just a worker at a supermarket, he took pride in his work, and took pride in himself. he had so much confidence in himself that he decided to share it with others. Walking into a store, he gave $50 bill for an item that was only $3, and blindly, he took the change and placed it firmly into the charity box without a split second of hesitation.

From then on, I have never doubted any possibility in life for change... nothing will stop me... because I know one day, I will reach my goal and i will become "powerful beyond measure"

I feel like I need to go back to being bad to forget the fact that you could have changed my life. Seeing you study made me want to work hard, since you disliked smoking so then I stopped, you slept early- so we talked on the phone until we are tired and both went to bed together. Now I'm back to my old habits, idk I feel like there's no one to help me, talk to me, comfort me. It's a hollow, empty feeling that nothing can fill and it hurts even more and more everyday.

oh hooooo what a feeling, i'm alive and well, to fly through the ceiling to another world, another world.