thank god for work, takes my mind off everything.

jesus, people need to really mind their own business....

No more time
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First time we talked for a while which seemed like forever.. Felt pretty nice but I know there's no hope between us

should i start talking to you again or not? =/

Cry it out
Fill up on junk food
Go to bed

Feels good!
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now I understand why Carrie wanted to puke when she saw the ring. sigh...it's all very nice, but...

no matter what people tell me, i cant help but have feelings for you. i love the way you make me feel even if i dont make you feel the same. i dont know what to do, knowing that i love you and you would never love me.

So, didn't get to ask today.
But built up a nice foundation.
Feels like we still need to get comfortable with each other.
In all, was a really good day =)

Sigh... worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them....

so she basically told me,
-its not like she doesnt want to go with me
-her friends dont have dates so she doesnt want to leave them, afterall its one of the most important events of the year
-told me not to be sad or anything about it
-said she will dance with me etc

i guess shes giving me a legitimate reason? or does this seem like bs lol
does she even realize that prom isnt that crazy? you just go in a limo to some place, take pics, chill at the reception, sit there the rest of the time and get rdy for afterprom.
fuck i wont even be sitting at the same table as her or be rolling in the same limo.

anyways, things are pretty awkward. rumors spread pretty damn fast. im friends with pretty much everyone in my grade.. i hate logging in on msn and getting shit in my facebook inbox like "so what happened? i can help etc" but then everyone just ends up talking about it.
when rumors are spread the story gets changed a bit..
for example:
person #1 says: "He asked her to prom and she said she will think about it"
person #10 hears: "he asked her to be his gf and she said no and told him to leave her alone"
wooooow seriously? lol
what should i do now.
best thing to do is probably be friends with her and act like nothing happened? dont spoil her like i usually do or make any moves or signs?
smoked quite a bit cause of all the bs. told myself not to walk this road again. but i guess it calms me at the moment :/

^^^

if ya feelin' like a pimp nigga, go and brush ya shoulders off
get, that, dirt off ya shoulders

just walk tall, chin up like nothing gon phase ya. trust me, people will notice how ya change, smile, a lil smirk. be checkin out other girls and don't even be subtle.

when they be seeing how you are, they're not gon be worryin bout ya, but rather be jelly and how you be struttin' that shit like a BAUSSS

Take what she says with a grain of sale (I feel like I use this too often lately). What's done is done and she can't change it. If she wants to dance with you then dance with her if not then go on with prom. Try to make the best of it as it happens once in a life and soon after you'll stop hanging out/talking to half the people you once knew in HS. Your life is just about to begin.

As for rumors, fuck the rumors who gives a fuck what everyone else thinks. Act casual around her as if she was just another chick. Smokings bad you should quit. Trust me it's not worth it to smoke a lot over girls (I know from experience)

GO enjoy prom have fun get drunk after. Remember prom is a once in a lifetime thing.

Fuck cancer.

i'm up at 3 am drinking and watching band of brothers cuz i'm stressed to hell and back.

seriously. fuck cancer. fuck cancer and everything that has to do with that piece of shit disease.

Falling In Love.mp3

It kills me inside...Slowly fading away.

Just getting a text or msn message from you makes me so happy, that's how bad I have it for you....

i wish i listened to dad to visit you more often. i feel shit for visiting you everyday this week while you were drugged up and couldn't stay awake for more than 5 minutes. you were a great woman, one that looked out for her grand kids. i may not have been there as much as you may have wanted because i was young and stupid and never thought that such a day would come. i love you grandma. rest in peace.

^ take care, xmisstrinh, may your grandma rest in peace,

I still feel this way after my mom passed away 3 months ago ...

feel like shit judging myself making up all these stupid excuses to miss all the family dinners, not going home and visit more, not listening and spending more time with mom, not paying more attention to her health issues ...

Sorry, mom, I am a bad son. (I would give up anything right now for a chance to say this to you and beg for your forgiveness ...)

just thinking about this bring tears to my eyes now while at work...

and for all RS members, I urge you to make good use of this long weekend and spend some time with your families and love ones ...

you only find out how much you treasure someone after you lost him/her ...

it feels like we're enemies at work; not talking or even looking at each other. I want to talk to you and it feels like you do too, it's just a matter of time and it all depends on who's going to make the first move...However, for some reason we actually talk over text and do so causally. I tell you I'm having problems with a girl, but not knowingly, that girl I'm referring is actually you...

they were tears of happiness

thanks buddy. i'm sure your mother loved and still loves you no matter what =]

i dont have courage to face reality so i get lost in my dreams.

she reminds me of my ex gf.....