| miss_crayon | 12-14-2008 08:10 PM |
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Originally Posted by rslater
(Post 6173698)
I've just been really wanting to get this off my chest and its hard to find someone who'd care to hear, so this is perfect.
I hate falling for girls. I hate my natural possessive and jealous personality that makes me question all girls. This all stems from a back breakup/cheating episode years ago, that even though I look back and it wasn't even all her fault, I still have a hard time trusting a girl. I also hate the idea of falling for one girl. Its why I haven't really had a girlfriend in years. Its because I know that in the end it may not work out, being it 3 months down the road or 2 years. I know what its like to lose someone, and that feeling hurts so much that I want to always protect myself.
| i know what you mean. it's weird because my motto is, trust someone until they give a reason not to. but despite that motto, i get insecure and it harsh messes me up. i've been down that road before where i just went wild and did whatever the fuck i wanted to do because i didn't wanna get hurt again. the hurt just numbed me that i didn't want to care or believe anymore.
but in my experience this will go away. once you realize that there's a time and place for everything...(like a true commitment) you'll want to stop your wild ways and just settle down with that person. Quote:
Why this has come about recently. Well im starting to fall for this girl. I guess were seeing each other right now, and I love being with her. But i hate knowing that in 8 months im traveling for half a year, and I know that feeling when I leave about how im going to be thinking about her non stop. Wanting to know if shes moved onto a new guy and all that jazz. It almost makes me feeling depressed about something that might only happen months down the road. I'm just so confused on what to do with the situation. Do I stay with her now and build an amazing relationship that destined to end in the near future. Or do I cut things off now, and think night after night about how much I miss her and whats she's doing.
And this is were I want to stop....fuck that felt good.
| i was seeing this guy for awhile, who's a pilot, and i really liked him. we had the best relationship as 'datees' and i wanted to pursue something more long term with him. however, he told me that it wouldn't work due to the time he would be away. 8 months on the island, a year in sask and other formal training afterwards. i was crushed. not that he was leaving but the fact that, that reason.. was going to stop something so wonderful.
i don't know what kind of relationship and how good it is right now with the girl but if you can see yourself still being with her after you come back (and her feeling the same) then i say give it a try. i think it's better to know what could be, then never know at all. | 