Still have feelings for you...

I love the way you look at me.. I love the way you hold, play and spend time with my son... And I love the way you hold me... Never thought I would say all this..

I feel like things are kinda moving to fast..

for what's about to happen, prepare my anus.

agh, you're annoying.

Would you rather live in a delusional world to keep yourself happy?
Or get slapped with the reality so you can move on?

Reality. Tastes so good. :drool

i dunno why you hate me so much? all i did was gave you my heart.....

That def didn't make things better...FUCK why are these feelings coming back again

Why do I feel as if you are being fake :alone:

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I've been delusional for too long. Give me reality.

No matter the time or the distance apart,
I'll be with you wherever you are

We made many choices that we disagreed upon, but fought through them. This is one thing that I don't think I can live with. Four and a half years with you... I think this is the end

:okay:
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Best fucking night in years

9 days before im home with my family. ima miss the gf, but she'll survive..i think LOL can't wait to see my mother <3 living without her since i was 8..and only seeing her once every 4 years has been hard , specially when i was a kid. I'm grown up now, and i can live fine without seeing her that much as i am accustomed to it but deep inside, im still my mama's boy :alone:

I told my mom I don't wanna move out because I'm a big time mama's girl

She told me to fuck off :alone:

:suspicious:

^ LOL

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sigh.

kinda sucks that there are talks of waiting to finish my 3rd sem due to tuition issues. i really want to do this, but maybe at the same time it's the Universe telling me i need more time to get better......

i hope all you kids out there who get your tuition paid for by your parents really appreciate it....... :squint:

^ Have you tried applying for loans and grants?

Yeah I have a student loan which is maxed out for the length of my education. I'm still in the hole about $5G's which I would have to cough up within two months before I can even step foot at my hospital clinical. I stopped working due to the course load so have no viable income presently. :squint:

I have plenty of certifications thanks to my last 2 semesters so I'm thinking about utilizing them, securing a well paying job (albeit temporary) and coming up with the money on my own.

Not too sure if there are any other loans available to me, if you have any info I'd love some!!

If there's something I've repeatedly experience over the past four years, it's this:

You're everything she's looking for in a man, but you're not that man she wants.

^^ damn, how many years have you been studying?

<3