VEGAS BABY, VEGAS!!

thank god for antibiotics!

Waisted to much time on you.

it was my last day in town.
10pm I decide to text her; just to see if she was back yet.
and to my luck, She was back.. and we actually met up and talked.
we haven't seen each other for over a year.
she still didn't really trust me, but I got some info from her. I can only imagine how hard it must be to be in her shoes... It breaks my heart knowing she suffers so much. but I have no idea how to help her....
I've been talking to her through SMS the last few days. and it seems like we are not as similar as I thought we were.... We have different points and goals in life...
yet My feelings for her have no changed.

no matter how hard I try in this life time I can never give you the life you have now.....
If I ask you to come here... it will feel like jail to you. you told me Vancouver is boring... it will be 50 times more boring here in this hick town then Vancouver...
and if I move back to Vancouver; I know it will be hard. I will have no family back up.
I just bought a townhome here... it will be finished building in Sept. 2013
even if I sell it and make a quick buck, the money wont last for long...
$38,0000 a year can not make a rich girl like you happy...
you use to spend more than that on Private school...
FML

Done rant.... for now~

AWWWWWWWWWWW YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH :fullofwin:

FUCK I hate it when I can't find something I left somewhere in my house :fuuuuu:

Fuck I can't concentrate in class with you beside me, but I don't want to sit anywhere else but with you :tears:

It's coming all together... Almost like a dream come true

fuck school 7:30 - 3 gym 3 - 4:30 work 6 - 2 sadlife
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Suddenly gone.
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I hope this shitty day ends soon..

This shit is harder than applying for a job LOL.

why do i never remember people's names? it's like i completely zone out and am in auto-pilot mode where i introduce myself but i have no clue what he/she said.

Nice to meet you too, ________.

Hammer time mofos
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FINALLY DONE EVERYTHING.

Everything is going better than expected :')
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Can't believe you
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I know if I don't do anything, I'll never know what the outcome will be. But if I do do something, will I just be creating drama? I hate drama myself. I'm still in the process of forgetting you, but it isn't easy. But I still want to do something for you as an anon figure. I don't desire to be paid back with anything.

Nothing feels worse than not knowing. What ifs and maybes are one of the shittiest feelings I've ever felt. I don't know about your situation, but I'm certainly glad I took the risk when I was in your shoes, even though the result was not the one I was looking for.

Treat my girls good and my boys , that's all it matters.
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あたしはそれを認めることを拒否しますが、あたし落ちている。。。たぶん。。。
今だけためらいや不安がある。。。　
混乱しています。

it's either too soon or too late, it's never the right moment... fml

live life with no regrets, find an answer, do ur thing, not what ifs, maybes, should've, could'ves, just straight up do it