Should I stay or should I go

Make a pros and cons list! :thumbs:
Always works for me, but by now I've figured out that if I'm starting to draw up a pros and cons list, it's probably time to move on.

How do I even come out to my parents. It seems like there's never a good time to do that as shit is going down whenever I feel it's a good time to do it. Too many variables on what could happen once I say it.

The weight of a thousand suns has been lifted.
It's going to be a good chill weekend, and I'm not going to let ANY SHIT ruin it.

Flat tire might!

i shouldn't have to go through this...fuuuaarrgghhhhh

I'm so messed up with these emotions in me.
How do I even deal with it any more.
I wish I didn't have to feel anything. I want to be numb

Why you snap me laaaaa:suspicious:

Speaking of snaps, not sure how to interpret that last one.

Don't know how to deal with things without you. This breakup has me running in circles

Everyone wants BIG miracles like winning the lotto or someone paying off their credit card bill. For me, not getting hit while I cross the road, passing an exam, and having someone that loves you no matter how weird I am are miracles in it self.

hope it all goes well

too many messages. too many invites. too many parties. too many people talking to me. the introvert is needing some precious me time.

I both love and hate October simultaneously.

Lol... "are you pissed?"

Yeah no shit I am.. All of you bailed at the same time -_-

I lost a brother in law to Cancer this weekend. It didn't really sink in till today when I was at work of all places.

Is it abnormal to want to give your life up so someone can have theirs back? He had a good job in software engineering, was able to buy a $40k vehicle in cash, taught in Japan, was raising two teens (have been acting out since he was diagnosed) and really was the poster child for the family who have been marred with issues.

I have zero acclaims compared to him yet here I stand healthy and he has departed. I would have left very little behind and he left a lot. Not many care that I am alive yet so many care that he has gone.

Posting while drunk isn't the best of ideas either...

I don't like it that you haven't been replying to me as much as before.... I feel like you're pushing me away but at the same time you Probably just want some space...

Hate it when my heart and mind disagree.

I've deleted you off pretty much all my social media, blocked you on one. You noticed. No less than 24 hours later you like a few posts on IG. I'm not falling for that trap again, I'll never pick up your calls or reply your texts again without good reason.

I know your cycle, I know your tricks. You could of had it all, but I guess you would have rather "explored your options" and didn't want to be tied down to a serious relationship at that age. It's okay though, life goes on.

I've been feeling a lot better. Lets hope it stays that way.

thinking about that one night and how i didnt kiss you... thinking about how my life may have ended up and where i could be now if we had gotten together. the more i try to forget the more it comes back and gets thrown in my face.

im such an idiot.

Everyone needs some me time.

on da same boat brah

Love how our relationship is now. As our one year anni approaches, I'm trying to think of critiques I can make of our relationship, I'm surprised on how difficult it is to come up with anything. It's safe to say I am satisfied with the way things are now. I can only hope things only get better from this point onwards!

I need to learn to control my emotions because I have a feeling that my outbursts will drive you away from me one day. I went from being very confident that you would never break up with me to being very aware that I am the problem that needs to be fixed.

I promise to be less angry.
I promise to not let my emotions get carried away.
I promise to not make you sad and stressed, but to help you relieve of those feelings.
I promise to be supportive of you always.
I promise to care for and protect you to the best of my ability and I will get stronger everyday to achieve this.
I promise to love you.

Dat bigmac