I really need to sleep normally, ugh. brain won't stop shut off though.
Stop thinking, Brain!
Sigh ~
I'll miss you. =[

i need to sleep normally too.. but my brain is retarded and likes to stay up until the sun rises well away that i have to wake up at 9am -_-

i am quite interested in you.. i know it's nothing serious or long term but still.. there's something about you that just draws my attention

Awesome! I have class in 3 hours and I still can't sleep.
Sigh. I miss my barrier.

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One day when you need someone I won't be around... Instead I will be off elsewhere.
I wonder why at this point I hold you more important than other things offered to me.
Perhaps, I should just take up the offers and leave. You seem to be okay with it.

Sometimes we end up running too fast we forget what we left behind and by the time we remember and turn around, it's no longer there.

/emo

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Hopefully this doesn't end up like the other 100x times I've tried.
Maybe things have gotten better...
I really hope so because I didn't know what else to do when I found out, I thought I would just follow along then.
Sadly the hands of time doesn't wait for us and continues forward no matter how much we try to resist.

I don't regret my decision but I will miss the fact that you understood my feelings and never left me behind because of that.
I'm glad that I was able to enter your life and be apart of it.
It was the only time I didn't have to worry about my biggest fears...
I'm finding much harder to stand on two feet like this, but perhaps it is easier than putting on a fake smile and facing the world.
We'll just have to wait and see. I feel like I've sacrificed confidence for honesty, I wonder if it was worth it...
Thanks again for being there when I needed someone the most.

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So now I find out the only thing I was looking forward for summer semester is not happening.


01/04 - Day of bad news for the past 3 years for me. Sigh.

kinda scared of the answer..

hmm to pursue or not to pursue... i really don't know what it is about you that has my attention

OMG Emo streak ended!
^_^

I'm sorry, i should've appreciated your cheering up.
i guess it just isnt my week
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i hope your not mad at me.

i miss youu

i want some supreme box tees. buy for my birthday, i bought you a maried to the mob tee for your birthday ahah

Music has helped me overcome my broken heart.

Now I can't wait for my band's first live, we'll be getting high school poonani like crazy =D

+1 for first bit.

+1 for second bit? ahahahah that's something I've been thinking of....the band part. :p

I really wish you were going tomorrow night =[ stupid work in the morning >< who works on saturday?? Geeze!

How does one read a person? What lies behind their steady gaze, their offhand gestures, their facial expressions? But then, some are so easy to read, yet others are enigmas, mysteries, puzzles.




I suppose that's why I find you intriguing. :lol

I have succumbed to an co-dependent relationship which sucks balls because we know we're not suppose to be together but we still trying to because we think its the right thing to do and that we're meant to be.
Its hard, but i know all relationsihps are hard. Im getting the horrible deal on my side of the end, i feel so insecure and i dont like myself when it comes to him sometimes, butonly about the negative feelings I feel. Other times when we're alright, I'm pretty happy.
Its fucked.

What have I done to you to make you ignore me? =(

oh man, drunk on a thursday is the shit

It can't be helped I suppose. =]

Perhaps I've become desensitized ~

lol I randomly got drunk last Monday, and then Saturday lol

It's not bad getting drunk in the middle of the week

That was possibly the worst movie I've ever seen. Even worse than the one my mom and I watched on fast forward and did our own commentary for.... Good thing you missed it! FNF4 was good though =]

I'm interested, but I think you're seeing someone.
Don't know if asking would ruin it.
And fuck, you're special. :(

Just cuz she's seeing someone doesn't mean she's off limits man. It's all fair game, that's why you see someone, to see if theres other options out there or if it'll work with said person.

Just do it.:thumbsup:

I FAILED to party on my last weekend before school officially resumes for me.
Oh well, there's always ARMIN! :D
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I wonder what she's up to right now..

One brother disapproves, the other doesn't care. Shit just got complicated =[ Why does it seem like every time I meet a male (with a couple of exceptions) shit always happens and the friendship or whatever it is turns sour? I realize the latest one is of my own doing, but I'm tired of reaching and having my hand slapped away. I'm done trying to be close to you and I'm almost done trying to even be a remote friend. I understand you're going through stuff, but really, closing people out who care in favor of others isn't the answer. And don't even think about trying to deny that's what you're doing.

God damn it! Chilliwack? Really? =[ sigh.

"When is her birthday?"

Plenty of people know, why ask me? I know why. Because you all still connect me with her, still think we're the "star couple." Grow up. She did, and I more. It's been longer that we've been apart than we've ever been together. One little question that continues to confirm all your static, incorrect views of me. Perhaps you just don't have the ability to comprehend me, in which case I can only forgive and say "goodbye."

Guess what? I have friends more important than you, more understanding and definitely more true to their own views of the world (whether I agree with them or not). You claim you're one way, yet never put any effort into living that out. Lip service belies your hypocrisy.

Others are more important, yet you are all still important to me. I just hope and pray that you grow too, one day.

^I thought the patch on his chest said Milfpunk..............

You are not the first HAHAHAH