Everything's falling into place... 2.5 more months and I'll be where I want to be by the end of this year.

An added *bonus* along the way will make everything whole. If it's meant to be, it will be. Time will tell shortly.

:victory:

At a career crossroad...

Continue being a freelancer with the pros of rubbing shoulders with the industry's best and picking their brains, flexible hours and slowly increasing my hourly rate while getting a good workout every time at work. Cons being there will be a point where I max out my hourly rate, odd/long shifts and the possibility of being stuck at the same position.

Take a full time offer with one company. Put my dues in for 2-3 years. working my ass off for the same mediocre rate sacrificing many if not all weekends. But have a really good shot at management hopefully within 3 years.

Decisions decision. Not young and single anymore.... Continue chasing that elusive dream or face reality and sellout to become a white collar paper pusher... I guess the only comfort in either of my decision is that I will still be in the same industry that I love.

I say I don't care, I need you to stay outta my life to keep you safe. Please don't take this too hard. I can't keep you safe if you're too close to me, I love you please take care of yourself when I'm not around.

If you're not young and single anymore. I think you should pick the steady job. #2

Whatever the situation is, keep your head up man. Stay safe.

Btw. Bought a miata

There is calculated risk and gambling. Talk to the people that matter.

Sept 2009 - hello
Dec 2009 - i like you
May 2010 - lets make it fb official!
mid 2011 - i love you
nov 2012 - set it free, if it comes back it's meant to be.
april 2013 - we can learn to love again
may 2013 - step #1
dec 2013 - i'm gonna marry you in 2016
may 2014 - you are the best
july 2014 - you, me and peter pan
nov 2014 - not again....
may 2015 - wish you were still around

they say the hardest things to say are the 'first hello' and the 'last goodbye'

Not bringing you anything back from my trip after I explicitly asked you twice out of thoughtfulness if you wanted anything, turning me into a bad guy for not bringing you back anything and calling me all sorts of immature names and how you're ashamed to have me in the family, then calling me out for going apeshit? What sane human being would NOT go apeshit?!

Piece of shit.

Met a Grill from vacation tour thing in China.
Grill is from America.
We exchange info.

What now......

Yes, a grill. Kappa

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Good long weekend. :hat:
#1 regret = should've sat in the sun more. :toot:

I am officially 6 months away from being disowned by my family. Anybody have a box I can live in?

beebs marrying someone family doesn't approve of? Or are you getting another tattoo in 6 mths?

You wouldn't happen to need a box for two in 6 mths would you?



Anyways quitting smoking, patches don't work. Vape don't work. Last run when I quit for 7years took zyban and that worked.
So taking it again, while technically an anti depressant, it seems to be working, And haven't felt so normal in years.... Maybe I was technically depressed so I smoked and now I'm not depressed so I don't smoke.... Or maybe I'm just plain depressed. Fuck. I should stop mind fucking myself and just quit smoking. Fucking pills.

tattoo. full sleeve. momma gonna kill me cuz i promised her no more. I LIED.

Going to take a pic and show us the tattoo?

Almost got kick out too but in the end it didn't happen. Parents just started seeing things from my point of view.

Maybe talk to your parents why you want to get tattoo? Maybe is to remember a close friend who have pass away? I am sure once they hear why you want a tattoo and though about it they won't try to kick you out?

But hey moving out and living on your own isn't so bad either.

There's no reason other than I like the art. I have 3 already. I've also moved out before so that's nothing new. 29 years old and I'm still terrified of my mom when she's mad lol... She's tiny and full of rage. It's cute when you're not on the receiving end of it.

Feel so confused with what to do with the rest of my life. I could stick to my original plan and get my masters when I finish my undergrad but I'm not sure if I can handle going through 3+ more years of school..

On the other hand, I could join the VPD which has been my dream for a while now. But for that, I would have to completely change my life and not keep in touch with all of my closest friends and i'm not too sure if I can lose them especially with what i'm going through right now.

Constant tug-o-war going on in my head the past 6 months

in the exact same situation... striving for VPD, but afraid of losing a good friend

every advancement i make towards my career is done with uncertainty 'cause i love the guy so much

Yeah man I know exactly how you feel. It sucks but so worth it in the end haha. Hope to see you on the force one day :)

Do what is best for you... don't do what's best for your friends. Friendships come and go, but the solid ones endure as you get older.

Fucking stupid ass day at work. Stupid customers and being called out by management for a huge misunderstanding I knew nothing about.

:fuuuuu:

The thing is, they're all solid friendships that I can honestly see lasting forever. The only thing is that if I wanted to join, I would have to completely cut them out because of what they are involved in or have been involved in. But you're right, I have to do what's best for me, just really sucks.

To stay at current job that's 5 minutes away from my place with ancient facilities, unsteady management, but good people that ive met already OR to leave for a similar job that's 30 minutes away and start fresh but has far better facilities, better pay, and more chance of moving up?

Really dont know anymore. Might have to YOLO it

I don't know how you got hired to be managing our projects. But you're certainly not getting respect from us til' you earn it.

You straight up BS'd on your resume with made up experiences along with being the youngest on our team. :fulloffuck:

We're not gonna take orders from a kid that's young as our summer interns. BS lack of experience will only show up, very soon.

Even tho it's been 3 weeks since I'm here. Co-workers and I have our eyes on you, kiddo. :suspicious:




... You know nothing, Jon Snow.