[katiejh]

Originally Posted by min.tee

There are so many people I lost touch with because of this chick, just to curb her jealousy (and the opposite is also true). I did cry when I heard it straight from her mouth on the phone yesterday, but I spent all day today in bed because I took sleeping pills at 5am and wound up sleeping all day.

I honestly don't know where to start. I'm not back in school until next year, and it's hard to get reacquainted with people for now... the past two months with her was spending every other day with her, talking to her, webcamming with her, grabbing water or food for her while she's at work, picking her up and taking her home from work...



Sometimes I hurt her by just shutting up and leaving because I wanted to be left alone because I was ticked off and just needed to cool down. I know I'd blow up and I did when she would nag me. I was a huge jerk for not handling my own emotions. I know that one time I did take it too far and nearly slept with another woman, though, and confessed to her after a few months. I also hung out with some female friends (sometimes behind her back) despite her objections. All these things (my temper, hanging out with girls she didn't like, and that one incident) she has never let go. For these reasons, I'm a jerk.

Despite that, I've never fallen for anyone else, which was her biggest fear, yet she grew feelings for someone else and broke up with me in the span of a week. It makes me sick to think she's already with someone else so quickly.

Now that I think about it, she was always hiding how she felt. I just believed her lies and thought everything was working out recently.

that makes sense. At least she is responsible enough to not go too far with the other guy while you guys are together right? You should feel sick for almost sleeping with another girl. Somehow, I honestly feel bad for your ex for putting up with your jackass behaviors. What is this new guy like? And is your ex hot or something? It's pretty hard to find someone else better than your current boyfriend these days.