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I wonder if you'd hurt for me if you knew what I was going through right now. So utterly alone and stuck with people around me that I want to have nothing to do with.
My feelings have changed drastically. Right now, one belief I have is what's helping me barely stand on my own two feet. That belief is that:
Whether it be months or even years later, you and I will be together again.
Hopefully time will help us grow and mature. Because as time goes by, I'm learning more and more clearly that without you, I would be settling. I'm meeting lots of new people that are incredibly friendly and genuinely good people. But it's also helped me realize how much we took for granted how easily we connected. I can't talk to anyone the way I talked to you. I don't feel as content with life as I did with you. It's alright if you don't feel the same way. I'll just remain broken like I have been.
I am the crazy 24 year old that wants to find "the one." And hell, I'll even admit what lots of people end up declaring at weddings; You've made me a better person. I would never have survived here alone if you didn't help me develop such a strong sense of myself. I've identified who I am and who I strive to be. No one can strip that from me. You're the first man in my life that's made me a better person. I thank you for that. I hope one day I'll get a chance to tell you all of this.
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