[iamadouche]

So I want to say first off that i'm a complete slut and i'm the scum of the earth. I don't deserve my bf and i'm completely ashamed and probably should be chained to a wall and beaten.

i have had a bf for four years.
i love him
he loves me
I want to marry this guy/I can see myself marrying him.
but, i fucked up.

four months ago i cheated on him with another guy. We had sex twice and had somewhat of a relationship.

i've completely ended all ties with the "fling" and i feel like a complete slut/skank. I ended it because i realized what i was doing was completely wrong and stupid.

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Should I tell my boyfriend?

I honestly believe I will never cheat on him again. I don't know why I did, I was weak. And one thing led to another and I cheated.

If i tell him he will probably leave me.
But, if I don't tell him and we get married i'll have this hanging over me for the rest of my life and I don't know if I can handle that.

We are both 26 and marriage is definitely an option sometime in the near future (a few years maybe?).

What should this stupid good for nothing slut of a woman do?
And please feel free to call me names and ridicule me as I deserve it.