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instantneedles · 03-05-2011, 11:15 PM

Not even gonna bother with the grammar.

I'm tired of this all.... . No matter how hard I try, I'm let down again. Right when I gain enough confidence to attach myself to something in this world, I am let down. Time and time again I try, each time with failure. Each time worse than the last. Does anyone give a shit? Does anyone care? Perhaps. But in the end, i'll end up like the piece of shit i always end up as. I try to reach out to things, I try to let someone know how I feel, but no one listens.
All I could think of, is suicide.

Why do I feel this way? In honest truth, I feel like a jerk. I am so self-conscious of my own pain when others are not given the chance to live in a healthy body, given an education, great friends and family that may not seem to notice my presence, but that really do care for me.

But in the midst of all this darkness, I see light. The light that continues to shine at me no matter how dark my surroundings are.
Looking back, I remember a fellow I would see around the neighborhood that worked at safeway. Whenever I see him around, he would give me goosebumps up my spine. Not because he was a creep, but because he motivates the FUCK out of me. A kind young gentleman that carried passion and confidence in whatever he did. But he has a scarred mouth. So scarred in fact, that it couldn't be covered. So scarred, that he didn't even bother trying to cover it, that he decided to show it confidently like a true man. Each day, he would treat everyone with respect even though he knew that at times, it would not be returned. But that's what life is about right? Doing the right things without looking back, holding back our fears to reach foward to gain solid ground step by step in life. Even though he was just a worker at a supermarket, he took pride in his work, and took pride in himself. he had so much confidence in himself that he decided to share it with others. Walking into a store, he gave $50 bill for an item that was only $3, and blindly, he took the change and placed it firmly into the charity box without a split second of hesitation.

From then on, I have never doubted any possibility in life for change... nothing will stop me... because I know one day, I will reach my goal and i will become "powerful beyond measure"

03-05-2011, 11:15 PM	#6373
instantneedles Treasure Chest MOD Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Vancouver Posts: 2,951 Thanked 1,602 Times in 704 Posts Failed 126 Times in 51 Posts	Not even gonna bother with the grammar. I'm tired of this all.... . No matter how hard I try, I'm let down again. Right when I gain enough confidence to attach myself to something in this world, I am let down. Time and time again I try, each time with failure. Each time worse than the last. Does anyone give a shit? Does anyone care? Perhaps. But in the end, i'll end up like the piece of shit i always end up as. I try to reach out to things, I try to let someone know how I feel, but no one listens. All I could think of, is suicide. Why do I feel this way? In honest truth, I feel like a jerk. I am so self-conscious of my own pain when others are not given the chance to live in a healthy body, given an education, great friends and family that may not seem to notice my presence, but that really do care for me. But in the midst of all this darkness, I see light. The light that continues to shine at me no matter how dark my surroundings are. Looking back, I remember a fellow I would see around the neighborhood that worked at safeway. Whenever I see him around, he would give me goosebumps up my spine. Not because he was a creep, but because he motivates the FUCK out of me. A kind young gentleman that carried passion and confidence in whatever he did. But he has a scarred mouth. So scarred in fact, that it couldn't be covered. So scarred, that he didn't even bother trying to cover it, that he decided to show it confidently like a true man. Each day, he would treat everyone with respect even though he knew that at times, it would not be returned. But that's what life is about right? Doing the right things without looking back, holding back our fears to reach foward to gain solid ground step by step in life. Even though he was just a worker at a supermarket, he took pride in his work, and took pride in himself. he had so much confidence in himself that he decided to share it with others. Walking into a store, he gave $50 bill for an item that was only $3, and blindly, he took the change and placed it firmly into the charity box without a split second of hesitation. From then on, I have never doubted any possibility in life for change... nothing will stop me... because I know one day, I will reach my goal and i will become "powerful beyond measure"