[El Bastardo]

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My SO went on vacation for a bit and the first couple of days, I missed him a lot because I wasn't used to not waking up to a text or a call from him. We've been keeping in contact through an international text here and there, but mostly through Facebook.

Today before he left to start his day he told said I love you to me. It didn't even cross my mind to say I love you back, all I said was "have fun today." He asked me why I didn't say I love you back, and honestly, its like I forgot, I had no urge or want to say it, it just didn't occur to me!!!! And instead of saying I love you in reply to his question, I said "I'm sorry. I don't know."

I'm confused at myself right now, do I love him? do I not? are my feelings fading just because of time and distance? he's only gone for a month, but I don't know what I'm feeling right now, or if i'm feeling anything at all.

I can't say that I miss him, I'm not even sure if I do or not. Can someone help me decipher this a little? I'm certainly feeling a whole lot of guilty... any comments and input will be appreciated.

Thanks