dunno how to straight up tell you im not ready for a relationship. i have too much shit to deal with right now. absolutely dont have time for you, dont really wanna lead you on and later on, fuck with your feelings because im unsure of mine. feel like we are better as good friends then a pair. D:
school is fucking killing me right now and i dont have enough time to do other shit. eat, sleep, study. eat, sleep, study everyday. teacher goes through material so fucking fast and the assignments he gives out are such bullshit. bio is bullshit too. he gives us straight forward notes in class then hands us a 20ish page double sided booklet with enhanced notes for us to study. im the type that has to read everything through 2390519 times THEN ill somewhat understand the shit. fuck i dont have time for this. was really hoping to work part time while going to school. i dont even browse rs for more than 15 minutes daily now...
landed a bomb ass job. the excitement of working makes me happy everyday. taking pics (my fav hobby right now) with a kickass wage at parties and dances. im free to party myself and meet people.
but i dont know how i can handle the future events.. so much shit to study and half the events end at 6-7am. i have school at 8am-2pm 5 days a week. having one hour to rush to school sucks balls. but even worse, ill have no sleep and be hungry as fuck. im taking 2 courses and i have a 15 minute interval to get to the next class and somehow eat. then when i get home i have to edit and send 400+ pics and study all the day's material within the day. fastest i can edit is probably 1 minute per picture. so i have to spend like 400-600 minutes editing. how the fuck am i gonna handle this shit?? i dont wanna get fired lol
wowow i havent thought of how fucked i am till now.