[hongy]

I give up. On you, on her, on everyone. I don't have it in me to keep doing this day in day out. No you don't understand what I'm going through or what I'm doing. You just think I'm lying to you everyday. You think I don't care or love when I do. You are telling me to do things you won't do yourself. I give up.

We both wanted the same thing but then life came in and all of it's responsibilities. You're old enough to understand what I'm doing yet you are expecting more. None of these things worked out for me.

I'm sorry for what I've done, I'm sorry for everything I didn't do. If you were telling me the truth. Wouldn't it be best to be here?