[miss_crayon]

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So me and my ex broke up about 2-3 weeks ago officaly. We dated for almost 2 years and honestly it was the best 2 years of my life, yeah everyone says that but it was really different with her. The first year of our relationship was rocky but she still gave me chances to improve but I was to stupid to realize how special she was to me. Just this summer I tried my best to make up all of my paste mistakes to her but she just couldn't let go of the past. Idk why it took me so long to finally realize that she was something speical to me. So pretty much last 1-2 months of our relationship was were it all fell apart. Stupid fights would insue and she started hanging out with me less.

So finally come Black Friday weekend is when it was officaly over between us two. Recently she started posting these on tumblr and stuff how "Happiness Achieved" so I wondered who it was. To my surprise it was one of my closeish friends that started liking her and stuff. Most guys would get pissed and kill the friend but like for me I was happy to know that shes happy once again. But theres just a part of me also thats like wtf bro? you dont touch a friends ex-gf.. right? Like I was happy that she was able to tell me herself who it is and the fact that my friend wanted to talk to me about it kinda made it assuring that she'll be fine but idk...

Like I want to move on but its just so hard because I'm still madly in love with her atm. We both agreed mutually that we dont want to become strangers to each other but its hard talking to her without saying I miss you or I love you or I want you back.. This whole situation just kills my mood everyday and even for the holidays. I'm gonna lose some man points here but there hasn't been one night since she left where I haven't cried about missing her and our relationship. Everynight I'd go through my head of the "what ifs" =/ What should I do.. I'm a complete mess