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7 Years coming to and end? What to do??
I'm kinda just writing my mind as they come which is a lot at the moment, so if anything doesn't make sense just let me know. Came out a lot more then I thought.
I don't know how I would start this off but me and my gf of 7 seven years have lately in the past 3 months or so been getting into arguments in which 2 of them resulted in her leaving back to stay with her folks for 1-2 weeks at a time(we live together). She always suspect me of fooling around with other girls, which I don't. I do though, on the other hand have a few close female friends I party with along with the boys. She's says shes totally cool with it, but then as time goes by so throws it in my face as if I'm snooping around. Tells me she dosent trust me.
I tell her to come hang and party with everyone so she feels more comfortable and secure. She dosent like my friends so she chooses not to come cause she dosen't get along with them(come to think of it, she dosent get along with anyone lol). So on one of the night my friends party(we party hard lol) I go home early and my friends bbm me cause I didn't show up at our next escapade location, she tells me "Who is that bbming at this time, its a girl, let me see it!!" Shocked as I was I declined since for the past week all she did was suspect me of anything other then cheating.
I would normally just let her see but not this time. Also, to add we haven't had sex in a month so that kinda added fuel to the fire lol. (We are both very busy and only see each other at the end of the night and departure come the AM) and I just don't feel attracted to her or is it because when I initiate she says no and acts like she dosent want it when she does.
Anyway Long story short she didn't trust me, we argued and she left back to her folks and I'm left alone in the condo. I'm really feeling like it has come to the end of the road now that I had some time by my self to think about it. These past few months have left me less and less attracted to her. I feel as if, she's just someone I live with that I just rant my problems too. We barely hang out cause she dosent like to see my friends. When we do hang out, its going to dinner that's about it. I get along very well and have so much fun with my female friends, not so much my gf, I try and believe me it has gotten me no where. I find my female friends a lot more interesting, and my gf is just boring. Not sure if that's what 7years does to a relationship.
So here's a few things about her I dislike.
I sound like a uptight douche lol, below
She dosent get along with anyone I know lol, she dosent have very much friends. When she does try to get to know my friends she a very plain jane boring. Me and friends like to joke around when we hang out she would just be in her little world. Kinda like the girl sitting in the back.
She always believe shes right. Even when her point is so stupid. I will explain mine, then she will use my point given and twist it with her words and say that was her original statement. Its an endless circle lol.
She acts like a complete goof lol, then expects a good compliment. I shut her down with complete opposite lol. yeah im an asshole.
When I rant to her my problems, she just agrees with me and never with anything clever to say other then the obvious. "Aww, poor baby" lol
She spends a lot of bits of free time to shop for things she wants to buy(ex. Bags, shoes, cloths etc.). I don't mind this, we both have a taste for nice things, however it only bothers me when she gets so into it and forgets about the world around her while the chance for friends, people interactions pass her by.
She's is completely oblivious, to life lol, if that makes sense. Other then expensive handbags, heels, etc. She dosent know a single anything about our present world(Movies, songs, places to go, pretty much self interest or things people have in common).
The goods about her
She a very nice person.
She always puts me first.
She has nothing but good intentions.
She would never do me wrong
She is always there for me
I can be my self around her and just let out.
She let's me do what ever I want and supports it.
She very independent
SO at the end of the day, I'm in a serious rut, and not sure what to do. I just need some outside input on what to do. We both love each other but does this appear to be me falling out of love? I have invested so much time and money into this relationship. I wanna go but at same time i dont.
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