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Since I was a kid I've been getting this. It's usually one shadow, but sometimes there are more.
It starts by me waking up in the middle of the night - even if I sleep on my side (which I do), sometime during sleep I manage to flip onto my back. The feeling starts in my chest - if feels like i'm kind of stalling a car, like when you don't give enough gas when letting the clutch out. Then there's this sudden stillness, like the car has stalled, then a rushing sound in my ears. Thats usually when panic sets in.
The shadow dude crawls up the walls, and movements are very jerky and sped-up.
It always comes up to me, while I'm paralyzed and freaking the fuck out, and puts a really heavy hand on me and starts talking in my ear. It feels like lead. I have no idea what it says - it's never English.
As I got older I became more irritated with it - like if you want to fucking talk to me, lets talk. Don't just show up when I'm paralyzed you asshole.
I know it's not a 'demon,' but it is something. I get this odd feeling that I know it, like it's a part of me. But who knows. It's something I've been trying to figure out my whole life.
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