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my life is boring
(short version at bottom)
I'm a guy, 19, first year in college. Comparing with what others are doing with their lives, I find my life to be so boring. When people ask me "What's New?" I have nothing to reply to them. I go to school, I go home, do my homework and in my freetime I watch movies or tv shows online. On weekends I hangout with my friends, but we basically do the same thing every time (workout for an hour, watch a movie/play videogames, eat out for dinner, go home). I keep having this restless feeling that I need to do more exciting things while I'm still young and not overwhelmed by responsibilities.
At school I've been very friendly and met a lot of new people - however, only like one or two that I've gotten close with that I can actually talk to outside of school (I've met a lot of people but I only see them like once a week in class, so it's difficult to get closer). Like, I wouldn't mind hanging out with them, but it would be awkward and more uncomfortable than enjoyable for both of us.
I've joined school clubs, but I realized they don't really do things I"m interested in eg. play mahjong, online game competitions. They have a dance every semester, but I always get sick around that time for some reason. I don't know anyone in the clubs so I'm less inclined to go.
The people I hang out with at the moment aren't interested in doing the things I want to try (like clubbing ect.).
I'm also low on cash. I haven't worked in almost a year. I'm trying to find a job but I haven't been very successful, even when I'm applying everywhere and willing to do night shifts and doing stuff like dishwashing ect.
I live with my mother, and she doesn't like me going out. She doesn't like the idea of me spending money, and by my appearance, I look like a "bad kid" so she thinks that whenever I go out I'm doing drugs and drinking ect. (even though the last party I went to was like 8 months ago). I'm 19 and I told her I should be able to do what I want (come home late ect.) but she says as long as I'm living with her I need to live by her rules, and I need her for financial support so I don't want to argue too much about that.
Just wondering if anyone has been, or is in my current situation and if they have any ideas how to kickstart my life.
SHORT VERSION:
I'm a college freshman. I have a boring life, where I just go to school, go home, and do the same thing every weekend. Things holding me back from experiencing new things is money, parents, my friends not wanting to try new things and not being able to make new ones.
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