[CorneringArtist]

"Expectations are resentments waiting to happen".

I've had that line from a song echo every time I try to dig myself out of the jam I'm in. I just turned 20, and I've fallen into the routine described earlier in the thread. Wake up - Work - Dinner - Computer/Video Games - Sleep - Repeat until day off or Sunday. I chose to work straight out of high school as a mechanic. Despite having to go back to school for further apprentice training, that only delays the routine for six weeks. With my schedule, I feel like I've been in the same place on a personal level since I started working; on a material level sure, the money I make let me finance a new car with more than enough to save some, but what's the point if I'm finding life boring? Compound that with the fact I've never been in a relationship ever, or haven't seen any of my friends in almost a year (they're all uni students, but point aside), and it's a damn lonely one too.

In short, I have time for nothing because of my job, and because of my low seniority, I can't make time to do anything, and it's causing me to hit emotional lows constantly when I ask myself questions in my head. I really want to go to Europe or Japan for the cultural experience, but like I said, I have the money for it, but I doubt I can get time off for it.