[El Bastardo]

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So I have been dating with this girl for almost 2 years. We started off being friends. I met her through one of my friends. At the beginning, things are great (like many other relationships) but with time more and more stuff comes up. Most of them we can live with. Most of them, I can deal with.

There is one thing however, I cannot. Since we were friends before, she also hangs in our group (although I known the guys for longer than she have). So the problem is here, when we hang with our group, she wants us to be like friends (how I feel). What she said to me is that she don't want the others to exclude her out because she is my gf. In return, when we hang with the group, she acts like 'a friend.'

Now, I have talked to her about it multiple times. She says that's what she want and basically she doesn't budge. She is a really stubborn person. I think shes really selfish here. However, I think I am just comfortable with her right now and don't want to ruin things... Fuck, I sound like I have no backbone at all..

This thing just keep eating at me. I would put it off and sooner or later it comes up again.
This morning, my dad just randomly dropped me a question "Hey son, why does your gf seems like she doesn't want the other people in your group to know that she is your gf?" (Last time the group came to my house.) If my dad said this, then it must mean it was obvious to everyone else as well. And my parents are the ones that usually don't say things unless they were important or they thought about it for a long time. Therefore, they must've noticed it for a while now... Great..

When I heard that question, I said she didn't. But deep down, I was ..

Another thing this does to me is how it make me doubt myself. Before all this, I used to be a confident guy, never worrying about small stuff like this. Now I am so much more dependent on her and often with self doubt. I think it's because I have opened up to her (?) Funny thing though, is that she no longer love me as much as before (she said that herself). At the very beginning, she really cared and loved me. She would call me and so on. Now it's the other way around. Ironic how when I opened mine, she closed her heart.

What you guys think?