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Old 05-22-2012, 03:18 PM   #24
jameswift
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Life is a weird balance.

Take me for example. I always focused on work and making money and education. During that process I met someone, fell in love and got married. At one point I was making HUGE money, had slammed through loads of education, was in great shape, had a super hot and nice girlfriend. Life was pretty much perfect.

Then, I woke up one day and I wasn't in shape anymore, my health had slowly declined, my wife hated me, I worked all the time and ignored all other aspects of my life. My work ended up going down the drain, I got fat, I ended up divorced.

It happens.

I could easily have just killed myself at that point. I went from riches to rags, bitches to fags. A lot of my friends stabbed me in the back when I fell off my "A" game and talked a lot of shit. Kicked me when I was down and then some.

So now I'm older, broke, can't seem to get my shit together, my personal life is messed up because 95% of my friends decided to anal rape me. I'm single after losing a wife and I'm a wreck.

What did/do I do?

YES, I wanted to seriously die and I just about did a few times but I didn't end up going through with it. So what now?

One thing I've learned is that the world is a very cold and dark and cruel place. People don't give a fuck about you, the world doesn't owe you anything, and you're not entitled to a damn thing.

What to do? Do something about it. It's up to YOU and nobody else.

Not mom and dad. Not your friends. Not your spouse. It's up to YOU.

What did I do? The first thing I needed to do was get my mind in the right place and the best way to do that is to load yourself up on CDs and tapes like Brian Tracy or someone.

Next, it's about being healthy and being fit. Keep in mind I'm broke okay. I still shelled out money for a nutritionist and a personal trainer.

Every day I was listening to tapes trying to get my mind right. Listening to tapes trying to improve my business. I spent some time with the few friends I had. They listened to me over and over while I bitched about the same things day in and day out.

Hit the gym and worked out hard. Went to bed sometimes crying about my life. Like full on balling my eyes out.

You know what? My life is still pretty fucked up but it's way better.

I'm down to 8% fat, hit the gym 5 times a week. I'm meeting new people and I'm not winning at everything but I'm trying. My business is slowly starting to get back on the rails.

My health is very good, my mind is much better and I'm on the right track.

All too often it's easy to look at where we expected to be. I expected to be rich, married, with a kid of the way with all this career stuff going on and it didn't work out that way. I get mad because I was at baller status at 26, and broke at 31.

We can't control life, we can only control how we react and deal with what's thrown at us. It's not easy. Hell, it's hard! Real hard sometimes.

Learn from your mistakes, move forward, keep working hard, do what you need to do.
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