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I hit all of this around 29-ish...now I am 31 and still going through it. I rollercoaster between loving my life and hating my life. Some times I look around and I realize I have no idea what I am doing and feel that I am so trapped, I want to scream. Everyday is different, but the same. I have no real future plans and few goals that are only obtainable alone (some required an SO). I feel like I am completely lost control over everything and those feelings are so overwhelming some times it is like a punch to the gut.
My life got completely flipped inside out b/w 2008 and 2010 and I think I have yet to still process any of it as I just flipped the robot on to make it through it. I HATE HATE HATE talking about it with people as I feel like I come off as some whiny bitch who is acting selfish and needs to realize there are bigger issues in the world. I saw a shrink for 2 years during that time and felt immense guilt for taking up someone's time....and time away from anther patient who could have really used it. It DID help me understand some shit, but I mostly stopped because I did not want to feel like a whiny bitch anymore.
I get so tired of the pressure....I don't work hard enough, I don't work long enough, I didn't make the right decision, I'm not caring enough, I don't see my family enough, my house isn't clean enough, I don't have enough goals, I don't have any children, I am not married, I don't own a big house, my career isn't good enough, I don't see my friends enough....I never feel like I have accomplished "enough". I "should" be doing more....this is a big thing to me...I "should all over myself". Even now....I should be doing something else than typing out whiny sentences while feeling sorry for myself.
I guess what I am trying to say, I agree with most here....I guess we all go through it....some of us just hide it better than others.
I am hoping it goes away soon.
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