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it seems like you closed yourself off, even in these last stages. You've been shutting doors to the people around you, even your closest relationships. It is no wonder that this was the result.
It sounds like the symptoms of depression and I am very happy to read you are being proactive in seeking out treatment.
In order to salvage this relationship ending (which I agree with others here is possible) you'll need to commit to a big and immediate change in the way you've been communicating, which in itself could feel like a huge risk.
It doesn't seem like you really fought for it in the end, just accepted her decision. The thing is, it seems like she was driven to that decision out of frustration, not because she doesn't want to be with you.
If you need time alone to work on your issues then fine, but if you still want this relationship consider those things and consider them quickly.
oh and PS: Don't beat yourself up too much. Be easy on yourself. Don't judge yourself too harshly. So long as you know you're doing what you can to be a better person and to learn from past mistakes, you are doing well!
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