So I straight up told her how I felt about her, and asked her out.
A 50 minute conversation short:
I felt like I was misled, and friendzoned harder than a mofo.
I seriously thought this would work out. Have never tried this hard ever to go after a girl, and this is what I get. Tells me to "forget everything that happened this past week, I don't know what got into me, I did everything on impulse."
Going to take things easy for awhile. Obviously she treasures our friendship more than a relationship with me, so it's her loss. I still really like her, an insane amount but I'm just glad I got it off my chest and confessed to her straight up and had a mature conversation with her about pretty much every single little detail between us. Says she's happily single now and doesn't want to commit to another relationship for now at least, so perhaps there's still a pinhole of light? Not that I'll be hoping for anything positive to happen in particular...
Sad, I thought I'd really manage to make her fall, all my male and female buddies thought it was 100% positive that we would go out. Guess not. I can't believe she led me on, I never thought she'd be the kind of person to do something like that. I feel pretty terrible.
More money for car and computer parts
jk I'm still pretty sad
fuck