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Thanks for the words of wisdom and encouragement. And Grid--sorry I got pissy at you. You didn't deserve that.
I admit I'm very self concious. I'm 22, so at my age it's a given. I see it in my interactions with the people around me. When my beliefs are challenged, I can get defensive because part of me doesn't like being wrong.
In this case, having my beliefs challenged in this thread have given me so many different things to think about, that I have to step back and reassess what I really want out of a woman. More importantly, I have to figure out what I can contribute to a relationship.
Do I want a hot body? Do I want someone who is disciplined and focused? Would I be happy with someone who just does Chief/Grind and isn't much of a gym rat? And will we click mentally and spiritually?
I'm just not sure anymore. I see so many personality flaws in myself that I was previously blind to in this thread. There are storms swirling around in my mind, and I wish I could find inner peace. Then maybe I can start building the confidence needed to make a relationship work.
Because as it stands right now, I shouldn't be asking what kind of girl I can attract. If I got what I wanted in my OP, there would be fights and a bad breakup, I'm sure of it. I'm an immature brat, is what I am.
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