[guddagudd]

yea man I understand completely, many a days I think about myself and the relationship I have with other people. I constantly try to be the best version of myself but then while doing so, fall victim to the same ideology. It's like my ego wants me to be the best version of myself, but it also inhibits me from doing so.

And me being introverted does not help at all, though I have been some progress in breaking down some barriers.