Originally Posted by Ulic Qel-Droma
nah this isnt crazy it's true.
it's like multiple personalities. or how in dreams you have the ability to generate thousands of independent unique characters (which always represent some aspect of you, i mean, you are the ones generating them). Sometimes those inner personalities show up at odd times, when emotions are heightened or whatever... when you're "awake" and conscious, your ego/personality is just... a combination of all those.
as for sitting there and observing, and realising none of those personalities are actually you. I agree. but then you realise, when observing, sometimes you see things you like/dont like.... and then you think to yourself... who is this self feeling these things? or thinking these things? analyzing these things... I think no matter what, you cannot escape those other personalties. even when observing, the self still is made up of all the other personalities you aren't observing. I mean, otherwise, you'd just be a camcorder... just observing and recording. but not really using the information in anyway, not analyzing or doing any critical thinking. but the thing is you are still doing all those things. your life becomes a movie, but who's doing the observing?
I'm not talking about the need to have "alone time". Everyone needs that. Introverts more than extroverts. alone time is fine...
but what if you could have your alone time, but your life was free for others to glance over, like a book, or a detailed facebook page? why not?
I'm talking about the heightened paranoia (compared to the average person), about stuff like...
-masking your wifi signal
-not using google products cuz they collect your information
-not using facebook or highly controlling what is released on facebook (pictures info etc)
-always using secure encryption type browsing
-thinking other people will try to take advantage of you if you share your mind/life with them (whether its real life or online).
etc the list goes on.
i find all these tendencies to be overly protective of the self, predominantly are all introverts. Of course there are some introverts that don't care as much, but if I had to chart out how uncomfortable they are with having their mind pried open for all to see... I can guarantee introverts will rate higher than extroverts.
as for small talk, i understand the hindrance behind having to act all nice and do the "hi how are you?" stuff...
but think about it... why does it bother you so much that you don't even wanna put the effort.. the small effort to talk to "someone else"... other than yourself. It's because you view that someone else as separate from you. You view yourself as an independent agent more so than others.
why don't you view strangers or others as... just other ants in the same colony you live in? other cells in what makes up the entirety of human civilization? the same as you. no different. not separate.
like you said yourself... you'd rather think about how to plan YOUR day, how to solve an issue YOURE having... you don't wanna waste "your" time.
Why aren't you trying to solve an issue someone else is having or planning someone elses day? why is it your time? and not our time? why not everyone's time?
but you don't benefit from it so you choose not to do it? because "you effort/time" is being "wasted".
you don't see how this leads back to ego? your intrinsic values are to place the self first.
your time is "being wasted" but the value is being added onto someone else that appreciates it... so why with hold it? at the end of the day, it's a zero sum game. what you give, someone else will take, it still adds up to 100%.
i mean we're not talking about sacrificing yourself for some bum on the street. we're talking about simple gestures.
as someone introvert dominant, thoughts and perceptions emanate from the "self".. outwards. that alone pushes the ego higher up than others already... do you guys not agree?
the fact that you identify yourself as independent kinda makes it more egotistical already right?
I mean i'm not shooting down introverts. introverts are needed etc. there's always a need for balance. ying yang, order chaos, extrovert introvert.
but i'm talking purely based on critical logic. introverts on average view themselves as a self, separate from others. not just physically, but mentally.
i mean how often do you judge things or analyze a scenario, and you think about where it places you on the map?
how often do you judge things on where it places others on the map... how often do you approach a scenario and just ignore the self, as if you didn't exist at all?
i always use this example:
in the future, cybernetics has enabled people to connect their minds at a near instantaneous level.
when two people are connected, they become one. Their memories and feelings and everything, are shared, as if you also lived as the other person. except not only two people are connected. millions are connected. the millions of people connect dictate the direction of the collective consciousness. You can sort of relate it to an ant colony or a hive of bees. Except everyone is a worker, and everyone is the queen at some level. when meeting another person connected, you can instantaneous identify with them as if you have lived their life, and they have lived your life. Their memories and your memories kind of become a blur, you remember who you were before, but after connecting, all memories and experiences after seem kind of a mix of everyone in the collectives.
you are able to unplug, but majority of people don't. it would feel like a human becoming an ape again in terms of intellectual and awareness level.
does this idea appeal to you? if so, why? if not, why?
(like i said, im not knocking down introversion, i'm just analyzing it critically. and where it stands on terms of ego... I just think intrinsically, introversion is prone to more egotistical tenancies, looking after the self, separating the self from others. on the flip side, extroversions intrinsic fault is the need to get validation from others, but again, is that not the ego working at some level??? the self vs others... compared to validating through others...)
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