[SB7]

Hmmm... If you're looking for just penetration, might as well start with a fleshlight or something. Its around 100$ and I feel personally less degrading than a hooker. Plus it can improve your stamina when you do finally get some.

As for being too old or whatnot, I think the issue stems from self-worth and esteem. If you're not comfortable and happy with yourself for whatever reason, it projects onto women and you give off the desperate, unhappy vibe.

You have to become comfortable being in your own skin, and for most of the time in your life you will be alone, which isn't really a bad thing, but while you're still in this situation you should try and slowly make changes that will improve your image/character in the long run.

Maybe try getting a new hairstyle, upgrading your wardrobe, then going to random social events, join a club, take on a new hobby, perhaps dancing, or pottery, or whatever. If you have a fear of rejection, the only way to overcome it is to give it your best shot, and if you get rejected, that shitty feeling that takes over you is what you actually need to turn you into a stronger person. If you learn a lesson from your mistakes, then it's all worth it in the end when you break out of your shell and into a more complete and healthy individual.