It's been a while since I went for a girl. I can't say I have feelings for you yet. Because of my past because of what I've experienced. I try to draw myself away from the emotional attachment. Why should you be any different? Statistically speaking are you going to be the one? You're a number, I'm a number it's hard to stop thinking so cynically.
It's rather nice to have a change from not getting a response back from girls to you giving me a response even when I say stupid shit. Does that mean something? Fuck it. You're probably just being nice and we're in the same circle of friends you don't want it to be awkward. It's nice that when we stop talking you message me the next day going sup? I'm not used to those things. I'm used to being treated like shit. I'm used to having nothing. And here you are doing opposite of what they did. Always asking me back what about you-- although I know you don't put your heart into it that's a nice gesture. Even though I get butterflies when I saw those random texts... I'm still going to suppress my feelings. I'm not going to lose my mind and my time.