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Originally Posted by El Bastardo
The following is a post from an anonymous Revscene member
So I got dumped on January 1st from a girl I was supposed to get engaged to of April of this year. We were in a long distance relationship but she was getting everything ready to from from Alberta to BC. Her parents and my parents both agreed to this and were happy we were getting engaged and married. Everything seemed great for a long ass time and there was honestly no red flags. I took her everywhere on road trips and partying and a musical festival down in washington state. We always planned to travel the world together and then she left me out of the blue...
Ever since she dumped me I acted clingy and desperate trying to get her back not thinking of my actions which probably scared her away more. So did no contact for about a month and wished her a happy birthday couple of days ago. The day after I broke apart again and tried to guilt trip her and convince her of all the good things I did for her which I did many and we both influenced each others lives and I got her into some hobbies and she got me interested in a lot of things as well. We both had so many common things. After guilt tripping her she got mad again and I shouldn't have done that. Should have just left it at happy birthday.
She sits at home now on her computer or on her phone talking to people she doesn't know online because she doesn't have any friends irl and I never told her not to make any I always used to tell her to make some more friends in class and to get to know people and she did sometimes. But they were mainly friends in class not outside of school. All I know she goes to school and comes back home right away after it's done. She isn't allowed much freedom to leave her house because her parents are strict about that and she was with me because she fought about it and told them she cried to her parents and told them she loved me which they eventually excepted and let us go on trips together and be with each other even though we come from different religious backgrounds. Our parents accepted our relationship.
Ever since she left me I've been feeling like absolute shit. My health, my body, and mental state have all gone to crap. I have lost 20-25 lbs since this happened, and my body is deteriorating and frankly I stopped caring. At times I just feel like disappearing and getting rid of myself from this world. I just don't know what to do anymore and I've honestly come to the point of not caring whether I die. I don't know what to do anymore I've lost all hope in life. I was about to open a business with a friend and family member and I was also setting up my career...her leaving me hit me and derailed me off my path and honestly I don't want to do anything anymore and just want to waste away into nothingness...I give up.
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Sounds more like a rant/vent/get it out of your system then asking for help. You didn't state the reason she dumped you and it sounds like you are stalking her since you seem to know what her day schedule is (now). Maybe she found someone else, maybe she's not ready to settle down, who knows.
Get over it. If she dumped you and you acted like an idiot (guilt trip, clingy, desperate), and she still didn't consider, it's over.