[El Bastardo]

The following is the final reply from the anonymous original poster

Thanks again guys for continuously giving me more advises. Just to make things clear, I'm looking more for ways to focus on getting over the issue, not advise on what to do, many of you might have misunderstood me, or I might have wrote it wrong. I am fully honestly with myself about her, and am quite a bit more confident now that she has been promising and faithful, and its still going strong.

Regarding talking about the past and my feelings towards her past, it is exactly like you said, the rape crossed her line, it was a once thing, it was the only time it happened. she did not sleep around as she had some real strictive work scheduels. Some may ask me "how do you know" but that doesnt matter anymore right? since if shes honest with me on something so negative about herself, I think she wouldnt have hidden anything else. We talked about getting back into her past, she says she is now tired of making tons of friends as she understands life, she needs some real friends and not just drink and party friends. She now realizes now unreal a party, drunk, friendly social circle is, and only wants to work hard for her future.

As for me, I believe her. I needed advise on how to get over her past, I am not planninig to make a decision of leaving her or keeping her, but thanks guys for all the comments anyway.

I'm very happy that I got alot of helpful information, and very glad many of you had reminded me how rare it is for a girl to share a past so unbareble. I think I found my ways now.

Thanks again, guys.