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9 months together. I cannot believe we've lasted this long. After the 6th month, it started sinking in that this will last. And especially after he was away for a month and the feelings were still there that I realized that I love him.
It's a different kind of love though. I remember him being really happy to receive morning and good night texts. Now, it's muted. I think he is still happy to see him, but they're now more of a formality than anything. I feel obligated to say them and partly because I want to be the first and last thing on his mind. And I want him to know he's the first thing on my mind when I wake up and the last thing on my mind when I go to sleep. We're still excited to see each other, still horny, still playful, still miss each other lots.
I wonder how long this will last. As bad as it is to say, as I know lots of people are still trying to find love in their 30s 40s, I hope I don't have to go on an app when I'm 40 to find a husband. I hope I'll find him when I'm in my 20s. Maybe I have found him, but it's too early to tell.
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