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Originally Posted by hud 91gt
Time will heal. Your loss was not that long ago. Keep strong. I'm sure she wouldn't want it any other way.
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She knew me well enough to know I would survive and be there for the kids, but I'm my own worst enemy. I'm now without that person who kept me in check.
When we got married, she took care of all the finances, paid the bills and kept that part well taken care of. Before I got married, I was in debt and had no plans in place - never thought about the future.
In the four years she knew she had cancer, she prepped me. I do all the finances, taxes, what have you now. I'm even pretty good at cleaning and doing the dishes, lol. The kids leave me alone, but I know they are checking up on me from the corners of their eye to make sure I don't lose it or do something dumb.
I am blessed in many ways. Good kids and good friends, but I still long for her voice......... even miss the nagging. There are times I can't believe she's really gone.
The scariest part is I don't know my kids like she knew them. I get into arguments with them here and there and I can't figure out what to do. I'm a traditional Asian dad. What the hell am I supposed to do? I'll figure it out, I guess. First time in my life I wish I had a manual to read.