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Originally Posted by white rocket
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Originally Posted by CorneringArtist
I just look okay at an event for about a couple of hours and go hide in a corner until it's time to leave. You can visibly see me go from hoping I'll enjoy it to "when the fuck can I just go home, no one wants anything to do with me."
This is why I don't have friends and don't like leaving my house unless it's for work or food. I honestly would rather keep people at arms length than deal with being ignored after trying so hard to get to know them and make a meaningful connection. It's happened too many times already.
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You'd be surprised at how others see you compared to your own view. I doubt it's as you say it is even though you feel the way you do. I can understand and relate to your constant disappointment though. It's a tough hole to come out of but I will say that once you "accept" this feeling as the norm you end up digging yourself a deeper hole. Embracing the darkness only lets it run free and control your life. It is the easy choice though as embracing it is easier than attempting to change it. Change is hard but once you make that step it gets easier. You fall down, you get up. Being disappointed due to others actions is no way to live and once you feel better about yourself you will notice that the feelings and opinions of others mean less and affect you less overall. I'm a pretty fragile guy and external occurrences affect me greatly as I tend to read far to deep into them. As you heal within, those occurrences tend to have less affect on you. Be in control, don't let the actions of others control it for you. |
Very well said, especially the bolded parts.
Reminds me of when I first came to Canada. It was completely new to me: new language, new culture, new people, new everything. I could have taken the easy way out and stuck around with other Chinese kids, but I said fuck it, I wanted to try something new, and I didn't come to Canada just to be in another China. Of course, there was also my dad, who pushed me out there to deal with it.
Sure, the early days were difficult when my English sucked, but the benefits I see today makes it all worth it. People often confuse me as a CBC, and they are very surprised when I tell them I have just been living here for 6 years.
Same with going to the gym. Hard to push myself to do it, but I just really push myself to do it and I feel great when I am done.
Changes are hard and it takes some efforts to step out of the comfort zone and push yourself through them, but at the end, the benefits make these efforts worthwhile.
I don't really think too hard about what others think about me. Nothing can really be helped, and you cannot please everyone. Some people just can't be pleased in general. Remember, there
are good people out there.
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Originally Posted by Traum
Dude, I seem to remember you throwing yourself into autox a couple of years ago and doing quite well as a novice. Have you thought of coming back? I've always found the local autox community to be a very friendly and welcoming one. Esp if you are open to committing yourself to the ELT, there are lots of good friends to be made, laughter to be shared, good natured rivary to be had, LOTS of meaningful work to be done, AND you get to drive your car like it was meant to be driven.
I'm not in a good position to get myself involved in that capacity for the next little while, but it was something I immensely enjoyed when I had the chance. I would highly recommend anyone who enjoys driving to embrace themselves in that community.
(But yes, it's mostly a sausage fest.  ) |
Planning to AutoX when the weather gets warmer. Can't wait!