[fliptuner]

I'm sorry for your loss and hope you and your family are able to get through it, alright. No parent should have to bury their child.

As far as grudges go, don't beat yourself up over it. I'm not saying you're right or she was but what's done is done and you'll just have to learn from it and move on. Maybe you were being stubborn but maybe there was more she could have done too. Do better going forward and teach your kids from your mistakes.

I read this when you first posted. I was at a hospice, watching over my dad, while waiting for him to pass. I had a lot of time to reflect on whether I'd done everything I could, to be a good son and you know what, no one does.

We never saw eye to eye and butted heads a lot but in the last few years I made a conscious effort to let him be and just appease him. He wasn't going to change and it would only cause more frustration, just for the sake of being right about things that don't even really matter.

He passed away yesterday and I'm at peace, knowing that I at least tried to meet him halfway and then some. He's gone now and beating myself up over things I could've done, aren't going to change a damn thing. I can only use this to raise my kids better and improve the broken relationships I have, that are worth fixing.

All the best.