Can you adhd mother fuckers go back on topic?!?!? Oh wait….
So if your folks are gonna retire soon then you and ideally your brother too, needs to plan out a path to ensure you guys don’t lose the house.
You got a wee bit of time so you gotta make a plan.
Old fucks can get on the government tit. My mom and dad are both on OAS GIS CPP and they clear around 3k a month. That’s enough for them to eat and pay the bills since they were thrifty anyways. The mortgage is taken care of already so they live okay with 3k a month. Factor that into financial calculation
So if around 600k you still are doing 4-5k a month on mortgage and that means you should ideally have a combined income of 6-7k a month net. I mean even with these kind of numbers you’re barely keeping your head above water but it’s doable. So that’s a 100k a year job needed.
Either do your job currently, which you loath, and supplement with some gig economy stuff, or retool into a field that’s in demand. You can get a 100k a year trades job relatively easily in Vancouver or even in Calgary. Like I said conductors are short everywhere.
https://www.linkedin.com/mwlite/jobs...Od_6NdHj6NIEoA
These fuck faces cheaped out. Used to be 10k signing bonus. Apply and I’ll help you study for the test and even show you the ropes. I still got a lot of conductor friends.
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As for off ing yourself. I’m sure most of us have all thought about it at one point or another.
Like you, I also don’t care if I live or die. It’s weird because my wife is deadly afraid of dying because she feels like she hasn’t spent all her money and then it’s gonna go to our fuck head nephew lawl. You know what keeps me grounded and still alive ? My wife. I feel obligated to take care of her. I made her dad a promise I’d take care of her and i don’t break my promises. I give her shit all the time but I’d do anything for that woman. Same with my chihuahuas… wruhh chihuahua now. I might not have much to live for myself, but I gotta keep living for others.
It might just be a Chinese guy thing…. I watch a lot of YouTube videos were the dudes all look like they want to end it. Or have similar thoughts.
Not to down play your situation. I’m just saying it’s okay to have these sorts of thoughts… a lot of us do. It’s also okay to recognize these are probably not healthy thoughts and basically a red flag to come in and take a pit stop.