BIC_BAWS: it feels so much like you've overcooked the entry and you've got a wheel hanging off the track. But by a miracle you've kept the other 3 tires on the black and now you're at corner exit: it's tight, you're not sure if you're going to smack the wall, the tires are spinning, shit it's gonna be a close one.
Fuck's sake, I think it's hooking up though: I think you're gonna make it
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Originally Posted by BIC_BAWS
Alright, actionable items. Do I....
1. Finish projects (~4 outstanding) that I know I will be paid for. (Interest on LOC doesn't bother me because I know once I finish these projects, it'll wipe it clean)
2. Find a new job as that's long term and once hired it's an immediate effect on my cash flow.
I can't do both at the same time because I "tried" that all of this year, got stuck in the semantics and did neither.
Resume
I've worked on this over and over again. I have a "finished" product but to me it's a cop out. My gripe with it is that it's not a true reflection of everything I actually manage at my day job or side jobs elsewhere. I don't want to submit it because it doesn't feel authentic and I don't feel like it's the best reflection of me.
I treat this job search like a project. Create a WBS. What do I need to do to get this done? How can I do it with best practices in mind to give me the most optimal outcome? What's the most efficient way to do this to reduce redundancy? If I'm putting the effort in to switch jobs, I should be identifying KPIs and hitting them.
The problem with how I function is that I get stuck on not being able to optimize or hit my best practices targe... and then I end up doing nothing. I've been "searching" throughout 2024, but I probably only applied to 2 and I don't feel like my resume hits the best practices mark so it's kind of a wasted application/burnt opportunity.
Further to this, I want to take this opportunity to explore different (not vastly different like trades or 100% commission based sales) career choices as this is part of my "optimal outcome". The worst case scenario is that I find a job in accounting. I would hate it, I'm not trying something new, and I know it's a waste of my effort since job hunting is such a big task so I want to find something I'll enjoy. OTOH, I can't imagine it being too difficult with my experience and I'll definitely be getting paid more than $60K, if not at the very minimum get dental benefits.
I'm aware that this is kind of insane, so what should I prioritize?
Anyway, I clearly have enough free time to be up at 4AM (can't sleep) and be typing this, so I guess I'll tackle the projects first... since I'm stuck with the resume.
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I feel your frustration. Please keep in mind though that perfection is the enemy of good. Imo you're going to have to lower your standards to take your first shot, and let it be a series of smaller steps rather than one huge perfect one.
If you put too much of your energy and hope into one or two major shots, it's going to leave you exhausted and unwilling to make those [perhaps many more] next attempts.
I'm doing ok in my career now, but it came out of 5 straight months of:
200 job applications -> trickling into 20 phone interviews -> trickling into 8 on-site interviews -> resulting in 3 job offers. That was
200 separate applications.
My resume started out super shitty but I just kept refining it as a continued applying and interviewing. It's a long process of iteration and the crucial step is to build the momentum. The other critical steps I bet you know more about than I do - being you were an entrepreneur - learning as you go, and getting back up more determined than ever to keep going, after a door shuts in your face. There are more doors, you have to keep going for them.
You are really motivating and inspiring me with your journey. I genuinely wish you the best in this.