[westopher]

Originally Posted by BIC_BAWS

To wrap up this topic (should've started a thread lul), I just had a heart to heart with my mom. She echo'd that I was at my happiest when I was running several businesses at once. I wasn't really considering accounting jobs and therefore getting a CPA, but Gerbs showed me that a CPA isn't just full-cycle accounting, as there are many pathways.

I also had a brief chat with my boss on Friday and gave him a heads up that I'll need to leave soon. I need more pay and I know he can't give that to me - we had just wrapped up year end. I feel so much better having that convo, I think I was so scared of the convo it added to my stress all year.

I find it crazy that so much change has happened in the last week, but it only started because of all of your advice/vented here.

Gameplan:
- Finish projects to free up energy for resume and to get immediate cash, in conjunction with doing a few entrepreneurial things.
- Get a new job that pays for tuition, dental and health benefits
- Finish my BBA, get CPA or SCMP certification, depending on what I think I will want to do long term as I still need employment income for mortgage purposes

Let's see what I get done by Nov 2025. I'll update then, if interested.

Spoiler!

To sum it up, I'm deadset on things because I'm all or nothing type of person. I don't want to say I'll do something (ie. sell car/house/not track) and not do it. There's some trauma associated with this, but my word is and will always be "gold". Actions speak louder than words and I like to be a living example of it. Probably because of the high standards I hold myself - including not being a hypocrite.



Thanks for the coffee offer, I'll reach out when I'm a bit more set up. The non-for-profit idea is a fantastic idea. I want to be doing something impactful. My bosses use "all hands on deck" all the time (despite everyone being at 110% capacity), but like... we're in the fashion industry....

AI is so ingenuine but my friend suggested I have a conversation with ChatGPT instead, so instead of plagiarizing it, I can use it to get ideas and put it in my own words.



None taken, you're probably right. I would like to think that I'm pretty self-aware, but I think that only extends to how I treat others (not myself). I don't think it's normal to live a life full of contradictions/constant internal battles with myself, overthink/plan everything, hold myself to an extremely high standard, yet be able to give grace and support to others.

I'm hoping that more revenue = access to therapy or something. I will however look into some free mental health resources. Are the mental health apps any good? I keep getting ads for Unbounce or other apps.

LOL I also just got an ad on IG for life insurance

I am however actively trying to be more positive in all situations. I hear it helps with getting your brain to not feel bad.

Re: rambling - have you seen the pick a car thread... LOL



Thank you. I appreciate the sentiment. I keep hearing about how hard it is to find a job, but I assumed it was for people that doesn't have a ton of experience. However, I'm assuming you have quite a bit and was still running into this scenario.

My friend also made a good point, my "50%" resume, might be someone else's 100%. So I should still be using it to apply. I think it'll be difficult to get all of my experience on the page and it'll definitely be more than the 1 page limit. I should really be logical in this aspect as I have quite a bit of experience on the hiring manager side of things.. so you'd think I would know what would be good/bad.



I didn't know about this. I thought I just didn't like to lose out on the upside - a hazard of occupation. Fully committing to the choices and adapting project plans to make it work.



Bro if it was a Tiffany with daddy issues, at least the sex would've been crazy good. Got put in the doghouse 2 mo in bc she had self image/worth issues so no intimacy at all (which is fine) but her personality sucked. She was miserable to be around.

WHICH IS WHY IM NOT DATING BECAUSE IM MISERABLE TO BE AROUND. Get my shit together first and then date.

I think with your experience and having some drive you're going to have an easy time getting a job with better cash flow. It's not going to solve all your problems, but taking the first step is a big move and taking some financial stress out is going to be a big positive net to your stress and self worth Im betting.