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Originally Posted by BIC_BAWS
Random 3:45am thought..
if you're not the best then you're shit and a waste of life. I wonder if all that as a HS kid, caused more issues than I actually know.. ..
I mean I wasn't complaining back then, but there's a chance it explains the extremely high desire to be perfect and the self worth issues as a result of it.
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That's how my mind operates for most things I do. If you're not the best then you're a POS and you're wasting life. I get really disappointed if I am not above average at things.
How I cope with that is I'll only put 110% effort and set goals that fall into the top 1-10% for things that I know I have a good chance to achieve. Only these things I'll prioritize and cause me to minor stress. It's nice to have goals to build onto everyday in a mundane day to day.
After finishing CPA / Buying own place by / Buying dream car by 24, I entered a period of no goals and no stress but after 6-12 months my mind didn't feel good not having anything to work towards so these goals make me feel more at ease than cause stress these days.
- Making money, try to get into top 1% 25-29 after tax $105K (
https://www12.statcan.gc.ca/census-r.../index-en.html)
- Try to make it to 5.0+ Pickleball / 3.5+ Tennis
- Break 90 in Golf 2025
- Continue to grind Poker and make $50,000 over 1,000 hours (Already logged over 8,000 study/playtime over a decade)
- Hit FIRE by 40 while maximizing travel, hobbies, and entertainment via churning (Need to join US game)
Everything else I do like Vball, running, video games, I treat it like leisure activity like an arcade. I don't bash myself if I don't have the highest vertical, fastest pace, or challenger in league anymore.