It's official. I resigned from my job today, effective immediately. I know that burning bridges isn't the ideal way to go, especially since I've worked with them for a total of 6 years (contracting + employee). While I find the work I do fulfilling and I'd like to see the processes that I've built continued, I really didn't want to go in and get harassed/berated for 40 hours being their emotional punching bag. As such, I feel like there's no point pretending I'll be there for Jan 2 to Jan 8, when I'm not. I was procrastinating on giving formal notice because I was so scared of the consequences (they'll probably try to call me, text me, show up at my house, etc), but I guess it has to be done.
I've been off weed for about two months now - basically since the beginning of this thread - and I've gotten some clarity/mental health is a lot better (weed helped make the frustration of the day go away). I've come to realize that a lot of the feelings of imposter syndrome/unworthiness comes from my job.
I'm responsible for a lot, yet my boss constantly questions the need for my role. This isn't an act of revenge to show him "how much I'm really needed" cause nothing comes from that. Hell, I quit. What I mean is, I had to leave the toxic environment of him constantly breathing down my neck or berating me with questions of things outside of my scope of work (ie. why doesn't the internet work).
This also isn't a "this happens everyday at workplaces" or a "your generation is soft" situation. I've put up with this since 2018, enough is enough, I don't think generalizing generations should be a valid point in standing up for yourself and leaving a bad situation.
At most workplaces, HR isn't the owner of the company, who constantly treats everyone like a slave for a lack of better words. I get yelled at for needing to go to the washroom more than once a day. And no, I'm not using my phone in there I just had to shit. Plus, phones are supposed to be locked up in our desks, with random checks (they need to use our personal phones to call [harass] a customer).
At most workplaces, you aren't being berated to the point of having a panic attack and walking out for a break. This is a constant scenario for me and there are plenty of witnesses over the years to prove this too. Hell, I've tried to tell them that this isn't acceptable behavior. But their attitude towards this is that we're paying you, so you're gonna sit there and take it - we own you.
I did however offer to assist remotely, but I don't expect to get paid for it. They'll weasel their way out of that one too. I've seen it happen to contractors and vice versa that we use. Even when I was contracting them in the beginning, they would use anything to get a "20-40%" discount. I should have known better.
Anyway, I'm excited for new beginnings as the Head of Member Relations for Western Canada at the new place. I'm confident that I'll be able to learn quickly and do the work effectively, but I think undoing the trauma I've gotten from this past workplace is going to take a lot of work. I didn't realize that a lot of the things I've grown accustomed to .. isn't normal practice.
Also, I've finished my 2024 Expenses breakdown. Are you guys ready to lose your minds over my lack of financial literacy?